Today is Day 2 of Lent and my quest to rid myself of alcohol, I have been having alot of doubters and people who are really close to me telling me they doubt I will actually quit drinking for Lent, and I will, hopefully I get to the point where I won't even want to have a beer and my friends won't pressure me, I think tonight I'm gonna go on my little self-test to see how strong I am, I think I am gonna be going to a bar and drinking water. I really am gonna have to stare satan right in the face and say NO! I do not want a beer....I promised to my friend and myself, mostly I promised it to "Big Guns Upstairs", and no I'm not talking about Big Ed, lol, even though that would be an awesome nickname for him.
The title revenge comes from Pastor Justin's Maxim sermon last night. I am gonna be completely honest and just come out and say it, but last night I kinda drug my feet to church but I'm so happy that I decided to go, Justin talked about how wanted revenge with people and not willing to forgive people is completely rotting us from the inside out, and that has really inspired me hardcore. I have decided to completely forgive a certain brother and sister from PV, most of my close friends know who I'm talking about. I truly hope they can forgive me too. I felt so liberated by doing that. It was one of the greatest moments of my life, when I decided I will refuse to hold grudges from here on out. For example Matthew 18:21-22, it was an amazing message that opened my eyes. Justin talked about how people get paranoid that people don't like them b/c they don't love others. Well the train of hate STOPS HERE, and i'm gonna start forgiving everyone and not holding grudges anymore. I'm going to love every person for everything that they are, they might not love me, but we are all God's children, so no matter what I know I share that with them.
I was asked to not to talk about God by one of my best friends, and I told them that I don't wanna push anything on anyone that does not want it, but I do want people to understand all the greatness that I feel now. He has already shown himself to help me. And for that I can't do anything but bow down and its time to let go of everything we used to know, I want to have a brand new life filled with happiness, love, and no hangovers!!! lol Anyways I'm done for today, and as promised is today's question to think about: If you had one completely free day and you could do only one thing and be in one place for that day, what and where would it be?
For me it would be spending the day at a sporting event with a group of friends, followed up by just sitting around and hanging out with my friends. I love you guys and you all out there. Take care :)
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Lent
Being a Catholic-Christian as I am today is a really big deal, today is the first day of Lent. Lent in some Christian denominations is the forty-day-long liturgical season of fasting and prayer before Easter Sunday. People always wanna know why is it that we have 40 days of fasting, well it represents the 40 days that Jesus Christ spent in the desert where he endured much temptation from satan. The reason we have Lent is so we can prepare to become true believers--through prayer, almsgiving(which is like any material favor that you can do to help the poor or needy), penitence(showing regret for all the wrongdoing we've done), and asceticism(abstinence from various worldly pleasures, especially sexual activity and consumption of alcohol).
This big word of asceticism brings me to my next point, and that point is that I made a promise to a friend last night that I would give up my use of alcohol for Lent, this was a choice I made up freely without them asking me to do this. This friend told me they had recently stopped using, and I am so happy to hear that from them and what it meant to me was a heck of a lot more then I can convey over a little blog. This will not be an easy task, especially with satan asking my friends to ask me to go out and drink. This isn't my friends fault, it is satan tempting me. I want to be very clear about this if anyone reading this decides to not give up drinking there is no problem at all with that!!! I am just choosing this journey for myself, because Jesus spent 40 days in the desert, I however have to just not drink for 40 days, but maybe more.
I hope everyone has a wonderful day and can find something to give up for Lent, it doesn't have to be something rediculous, but why not have it be something you really treasure? I'll say a prayer for all of you out there. Today I am hoping to start a new tradition here on the LTJS blog, I'm gonna start by asking everyone a retorical question: What is the point of life without love?
This big word of asceticism brings me to my next point, and that point is that I made a promise to a friend last night that I would give up my use of alcohol for Lent, this was a choice I made up freely without them asking me to do this. This friend told me they had recently stopped using, and I am so happy to hear that from them and what it meant to me was a heck of a lot more then I can convey over a little blog. This will not be an easy task, especially with satan asking my friends to ask me to go out and drink. This isn't my friends fault, it is satan tempting me. I want to be very clear about this if anyone reading this decides to not give up drinking there is no problem at all with that!!! I am just choosing this journey for myself, because Jesus spent 40 days in the desert, I however have to just not drink for 40 days, but maybe more.
I hope everyone has a wonderful day and can find something to give up for Lent, it doesn't have to be something rediculous, but why not have it be something you really treasure? I'll say a prayer for all of you out there. Today I am hoping to start a new tradition here on the LTJS blog, I'm gonna start by asking everyone a retorical question: What is the point of life without love?
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Sunshine on a new day...
Today is Fat Tuesday 2009, Mardi Gras! And in Davenport, IA you would think no one within a 25 mile radius has ever even heard of the holiday. Well Mardi Gras is supposed to be nuts, where ever you are. Its the last day to go crazy before Lent. Everyone knows that, beads and boobs, everyone knows this...why doesn't anyone in Davenport? Oh well, I'm not really in the mood to drink anyways.
Today I was given a great gift, the gift of friendship, from a person I wasn't sure if that was possible. But today is a new day a great day. Thank you to that person from the bottom of my heart.
As I write this new blog, I am listening to Barack Obama, the President of the United States, I personally didn't vote for him, and wouldn't even think twice about it, but I really hope that he can do everything he says. This country's economy is pretty bad right now, and we're gonna need something to change, but I am still feeling kinda skeptical of this whole Surplus idea.
Even though, I know I have many more friends than a lot of people would even hope to have. I still have never felt as lonely as I do today. With no reason at all, in a world of 6 billion people, I feel like Will Smith in I Am Legend, all alone. I would do anything to have someone else in my life, someone to sit and talk with, someone to talk to til way to late at night, and someone to say I love you too. I know that person will eventually show up, however its very hard to sit and wait to find that person. I know I have done a lot to scare a lot of people away, but I want to find a way to bring that back in like a fish on a reel. It won't be easy and the road is rough, but I really think the change needs to start with me. Its not my looks that scare people off, at least I hope not, haha.
I'm sorry to everyone I have hurt in the past, I'm sorry for all the things I have done to create uncomfortable situations for the people closest to me, I am gonna start taking steps in order to change myself. I realize my good qualities, they aren't hard to find, I'm a very outgoing person, with a good sense of humor and an even higher ability to love other people.
Everything Barack has talked about tonight has made sense and isn't ignorant but why don't we just do it and if he does, I will be one of the millions of voters voting for him. But I really have to see it to believe it.
And in conclusion, I would like to thank anyone who took the time to read all this, I know it was a lot, but I have had a lot on my mind. And hopefully this helps my dreams lighten up a little tonight, God Bless You All!!! Take care and as always More to come...
Today I was given a great gift, the gift of friendship, from a person I wasn't sure if that was possible. But today is a new day a great day. Thank you to that person from the bottom of my heart.
As I write this new blog, I am listening to Barack Obama, the President of the United States, I personally didn't vote for him, and wouldn't even think twice about it, but I really hope that he can do everything he says. This country's economy is pretty bad right now, and we're gonna need something to change, but I am still feeling kinda skeptical of this whole Surplus idea.
Even though, I know I have many more friends than a lot of people would even hope to have. I still have never felt as lonely as I do today. With no reason at all, in a world of 6 billion people, I feel like Will Smith in I Am Legend, all alone. I would do anything to have someone else in my life, someone to sit and talk with, someone to talk to til way to late at night, and someone to say I love you too. I know that person will eventually show up, however its very hard to sit and wait to find that person. I know I have done a lot to scare a lot of people away, but I want to find a way to bring that back in like a fish on a reel. It won't be easy and the road is rough, but I really think the change needs to start with me. Its not my looks that scare people off, at least I hope not, haha.
I'm sorry to everyone I have hurt in the past, I'm sorry for all the things I have done to create uncomfortable situations for the people closest to me, I am gonna start taking steps in order to change myself. I realize my good qualities, they aren't hard to find, I'm a very outgoing person, with a good sense of humor and an even higher ability to love other people.
Everything Barack has talked about tonight has made sense and isn't ignorant but why don't we just do it and if he does, I will be one of the millions of voters voting for him. But I really have to see it to believe it.
And in conclusion, I would like to thank anyone who took the time to read all this, I know it was a lot, but I have had a lot on my mind. And hopefully this helps my dreams lighten up a little tonight, God Bless You All!!! Take care and as always More to come...
A Few Things About Me
1. I am 24 years old and really just getting started on enjoying life, I think moving to Iowa City is going to be the greatest decision of my life, talk about really getting your life started. SINK OR SWIM
2. My parents have been married for nearly 27 years, that is amazing to me b/c both of them don't look old enough for that all, especially with all the stress they have been through with me, Megan, and Claire. There is no way to ever re-pay them for everything they have done for us, but I would really like to at least say thank you to them.
3. My favorite thing to do in the entire world is watch/read about amateur (college and high school) football.
4. I absolutely despise people who are not proud to be American, we are the greatest country in the world, no other country is more diverse then us, and it would be so awesome if we could all just embrace the changes that we all have I think we would all be so happy know one another.
5. I live next door to my paternal grandparents and even though i have had disagreements with them it is one of the greatest blessings in my life. My mom's mom, my maternal grandma lives about a half an hour away, and even though that is sooooo close compared to some kids I know, it seems to far at times.
6. I love the University of Southern California, everything about the school makes me happy. It is a school full of champions athetically and academically, from Reggie Bush to Neil Armstrong, from Will Ferrell to George Lucas.
7. Making people laugh is one of my favorite things in the entire world, I love to just make people break that face into a smile, it really is great once people let their guard down.
8. One of my greatest fears in life is living away from home, I know this next chapter in my life is going to be one of the hardest, but I know I can do it if I stay persistant to make something happen.
9. My dog pal, and my grandma's dog Missi are two of the greatest dogs in the world, they are happy to see everyone, they are never mean and growl, they just run over to your car, almost as if to say hello, how are you doing today, let me walk you to the house.
10. Living on a farm has taught me a lot of things in life, things like hard work is what is it takes to get things you want in life. It also showed me with a little hard work you can take a horse/pig/cattle farm and turn it into one of the most beautiful places I have ever been.
11. There is no way I could ever choose one style of music to listen to for the rest of my life b/c i like so many different things, I love country music, but I also like rap sometimes, once in a while techno is fun and sometimes i like accoustic guitar. Jack Johnson to Paul Oakenfold, Alan Jackson to T-Pain.
12. I can't imagine living life without a phone (land line or cell) or tv, i absolutely love to know what is going on in the world.
13. One of the things in my life I am most jealous of, is my friends that are much more athletically gifted, as in Bobby Wuertz or Colin Suiter. They love sports as much as me, and they can go out and do those things with out much struggle as I know I would never be able to do.
14. Another fear of mine is talking to girls that I'm interested, I'm a very outgoing person and when I meet a girl I like I sometimes try to hard and end up landing in the dreaded "friend zone." Which isn't all bad b/c some of my best friends in the entire world are girls, girls that I couldn't ever imagine dating b/c they are like more then sisters to me, they are absolutely fabulous friends, like Leslie and Steffany.
15. Wrestling is one of the greatest sports around, and I find it so rediculous when people call it gay, how is two extremely badass athletes trying to take eachother down to the ground and pin them gay? Its one of the most intense sports out there, and if you understand it, you couldn't possibly not love it. Every muscle in your body is used.
16. I love to have nice clothes and dress nice, I don't like to over dress like something from express, but I like people to see me and think you know Joe looks nice today.
17. If I could ever design myself to be the perfect person I would want to be a person who is Extremely athletically balanced, not necessarily first team all american in anything in particular, but just good at all sports, I would want to be kind to all, and I would like to be able to make anyone laugh that I am around.
18. I love to see different places and things, my camera on my cell phone is full of random pictures that no one will ever understand but me, my life is a song, and everyone in it make up the lyrics.
19. Someday my goal would be to be as famous as Michael Jordan was in the mid 90s with the Bulls, everyone in the world knew who he was, there was a poster the size of a building in china of him, but I would like everyone to respect me as a person who knows of me.
20. I am not a suicidal person, but ever since I was a kid I have always had a dream that I die before I'm 30, its not a suicidal thing, its just that I think i really need to put my foot on the gas in life to catch up to everyone else.
21. I know there is no chance I will ever be able to marry a girl my age, I am to immature for someone like that, I wanna find someone a few years younger then me. Someone who is on the same page I am in life. Heck, my parents are 10 years apart, and my grandparents are 7 years apart, maybe its a geneology thing..who knows?
22. I really can't imagine my life without my favorite cousins Tayler and Renee, I love all my cousins hardcore more then anything, I guess its b/c we always used to have birthday and christmas parties together and we always stayed so close as family. But I talk to renee and tayler every single day, I can't imagine not, they listen to everything I say, Tayler helps me with my girl problems and Renee listens to all my other problems. My cousin Brynna is always good for a laugh, I love her too, she has a photographic memory about nothing, except stories about me when i'm wasted...lol. I am gonna miss them most when I move up to Iowa City.
23. I don't know how it all happened but the Class of 2006 from PV is one of my favorite classes of all time, I never cease to amaze ryan hankins on how many people in his class he graduated with, that i know. And not only from PV, but north scott 2006 too, I dunno why but its just always been that way.
24. I do not have any tattoos at all, I have considered getting one or two before but i have never gone through with it probably because they cost so much or pry b/c i have seen to many old sailors with them and they look like shit now, so i don't want to look like that when i get older.
25. My biggest regret in life is that i never really finish anything well, including high school, i know if i would have tried, i could have easily been a graduate of college by now, but I'm not and thats pry why i'm still living at home with my parents, but moving to iowa city everything is gonna change and i'm gonna become a much better person.
26. I wish i could have gotten to know my maternal grandpa better, he died when i was 1 and a half, so i never got a chance to get to know him, but i'm sure he is gonna be watching over me in this next chapter in my life.
27. One of my biggest flaws is that i fall in love wayyyyyyy to fast, I have had so many screwed up relationships, my most recent girl friend now hates me, she said i smothered her to much, and i think that is why we aren't together, I never really could trust her, she would tell all her friends that we weren't together and got on other guys while she told me we were together, I really regret that we aren't on speaking terms anymore, but maybe one day we can talk again, and talk everything through, b/c i really would like see her again, but for now i don't know what to do about love, I'm just gonna enjoy being single and hanging out with my best friends!!
28. Beer is one of my favorite things to do, drink, and party with. Its been a good friend and my worst enemy at times. It is exactly like the Brad Paisley song says.
29. If I could have one wish in my life it would be to have one trillion dollars, and with that money I would buy myself a house, a house for the ages, and bring all my closest friends near me to live and so i could see all of them all the time. Including all my buddies from Arizona, including Wes Quick, Bobby, Elliot, James, Jimmy, Candice, Joe Matzinger, Mallory, Val, Big C, Scottie, and all the rest!!!
30. My biggest hope for my life is that everyone I meet or come in contact with is happy to meet me and never forgets me, I always want to be remembered for the good things I have done and said. Thank you to everyone in life that has influenced me and been there for me as a great friend. :)
1. My life was recently changed at a church called KYC, it has opened up my eyes in god like never before. I don't know what it was about this place but it has changed me in a way I never thought could be.
2. The reason I cheer for the University of Southern California, is because of their tradition, the players they have had there, and the great person that is their head coach, Pete Carroll, oh you don't believe me Pete is a good man check this out. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jqSJVEKWujQ
3. I walk kinda like an ogre, people always tell me they can tell its me walking from a distance, I am trying to walk more upright now.
4. I know looks aren't that important, but to me they are to an extent b/c you have to be physically attracted to someone as much as you are emotionally attracted to someone.
5. And as far as I said above, its kinda ironic, b/c i am sooooo self conscience of my looks, it makes me laugh b/c if you try to talk to someone about ur looks and say what should i change? people always do that awkward laugh and say no...you aren't ugly, don't worry. But i know there is a lot about me that i would change.
6. I applied for a job at Geico Insurance yesterday and I hope I get this job soooooo bad, i would be so upset if i didn't b/c it looks really exciting b/c i'd be working in a fast paced environment.
7. Currently I am absolutely terrified of dying, but I have been listening and praying my tail off at church. Because I know if i can get into a personal relationship with Jesus i know i'll have no fear, at all, and my infinite life will just begin at the hour of my death.
8. I recently have started listeing to different kind of music, i guess if i had to give it a genre it would be Lo-Fi, meaning its not like all the background beating that you would have with rap, or the big huge band that you would have with country. A perfect song to think of what i'm talking about it is American Pie by Don McLean.
9. I have another fear of dying single, b/c it really hurts me b/c i know i could love someone so well, and with all my heart, I'd be one of those sappy people that pry never got married again. I want to love and be loved back, again.
10. The song Life is a Song by Patrick Park is the Greatest song in the world right now, here is a link to hear it if you wanna experience the majesty of this song. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fafnermdET4
11. I watch movies and TV shows and believe I could be best friends with fictional characters, like Seth Cohen from the OC, and Dale Denton from Pineapple Express, no i don't smoke weed, i am just really fond of Seth Rogan.
12. A movie that i think is absolutely hysterical that is completely off most people's radar is Forgetting Sarah Marshall, and I love the movie b/c that is my dream, go somewhere completely don't try to find the girl i wanna spend the rest of my life with, and have her find me.
13. One of my worst habits and everyone's not just mine, is gossiping, I worry about other people's relationships, and what "they" did last night, opposed to just worrying about myself. What i am gonna make a habit of not doing this week, and for the rest of my life :)
14. Break.com has some of the funniest random pictures on the internet, I am not really sure where they get them from, but they just really make me laugh.
15. I know this is nerdy, but as much as I love football, my first love in life was reading about Space and Mathematics, I love them, I love physics, cosmology (no not cosmotology which is about makeup, cosmology is the study of the cosmos).
16. I don't really like reality shows like The Real Housewives of Orange County, or the Real World, or Big Brother, because its weird awkward and you almost feel like your staring through their window in the middle of the night. And plus i don't really care what goes on in their lives anyway, i need to take care of my own for right now.
17. I am not a Metro, but i absolutely hate getting dirty at all, i'll go work outside and thats fine, but some people can relax and have a beer afterwards, all i think about is getting into the shower right away.
18. I don't have any allergies, and i would like to think that is because I grew up on a Horse farm and i just got acclimated to it all, but i doubt that is the reason.
19. When I drink beer, I become the world's biggest hugger, i wanna hug everyone, and tell you how much you mean to me as a friend, but if i drink liquor (which i never ever do, seriously...) i become really adgitated with everyone i'm around and start acting like a jerk, and that is why i don't drink it.
20. I used to think having a good time meant you had to go out and get drunk, but I went to church last night instead of the bar. doesn't mean i won't go out again, i am just trying to say that I will pry act a little more responsible when i do.
21. It really hurts me to the core to know that I used to judge people based on looks, automatically judge them before even getting to know them as a true person, and I know there is a lot of people out there like that, and I think that I am assertive enough to make a little bit of a change by just talking to people quietly and privately instead of loud and proud in front of a group.
22. I have always wanted to go to Germany to see where my family originated from, and while i'm there you know maybe stop over to Oktoberfest.
23. Even tho not all of these things about me are bad, I really do feel like i'm getting all the skeleton's out of my closet.
24. I am often asked or accused of being gay, I'm not gay, I have friends that are gay, gay doesn't bother me, gay is just something that some people are, like white or black, gay isn't anything we need to worry about or hate someone for, and i know there is a lot of guys who are anti-gay b/c they find out a friend is gay, well here is an interesting way of looking at it, if you are a hetero-man and you walk down the street in downtown davenport, phoenix, LA, nyc, anywhere, are u automatically attracted to every single woman that you see walking towards you, HECK NO, so don't hate your friends for being gay, not always, but chances are that they love you like a brother, not they wanna get on you, just because they are gay.
25. My goal this week is to look at everyone in the eyes and think about what I love most about them. There is enough hate in this world to go around, why don't we all just try to be friends and love one another, or if we can't do that, then lets not be around or talk to/or about eachother, b/c its like Pastor Justin said, if we walk up to someone and give them a compliment imagine how good you feel and they feel, but when someone gives a compliment, don't just give it, to give it, really really mean it.
2. My parents have been married for nearly 27 years, that is amazing to me b/c both of them don't look old enough for that all, especially with all the stress they have been through with me, Megan, and Claire. There is no way to ever re-pay them for everything they have done for us, but I would really like to at least say thank you to them.
3. My favorite thing to do in the entire world is watch/read about amateur (college and high school) football.
4. I absolutely despise people who are not proud to be American, we are the greatest country in the world, no other country is more diverse then us, and it would be so awesome if we could all just embrace the changes that we all have I think we would all be so happy know one another.
5. I live next door to my paternal grandparents and even though i have had disagreements with them it is one of the greatest blessings in my life. My mom's mom, my maternal grandma lives about a half an hour away, and even though that is sooooo close compared to some kids I know, it seems to far at times.
6. I love the University of Southern California, everything about the school makes me happy. It is a school full of champions athetically and academically, from Reggie Bush to Neil Armstrong, from Will Ferrell to George Lucas.
7. Making people laugh is one of my favorite things in the entire world, I love to just make people break that face into a smile, it really is great once people let their guard down.
8. One of my greatest fears in life is living away from home, I know this next chapter in my life is going to be one of the hardest, but I know I can do it if I stay persistant to make something happen.
9. My dog pal, and my grandma's dog Missi are two of the greatest dogs in the world, they are happy to see everyone, they are never mean and growl, they just run over to your car, almost as if to say hello, how are you doing today, let me walk you to the house.
10. Living on a farm has taught me a lot of things in life, things like hard work is what is it takes to get things you want in life. It also showed me with a little hard work you can take a horse/pig/cattle farm and turn it into one of the most beautiful places I have ever been.
11. There is no way I could ever choose one style of music to listen to for the rest of my life b/c i like so many different things, I love country music, but I also like rap sometimes, once in a while techno is fun and sometimes i like accoustic guitar. Jack Johnson to Paul Oakenfold, Alan Jackson to T-Pain.
12. I can't imagine living life without a phone (land line or cell) or tv, i absolutely love to know what is going on in the world.
13. One of the things in my life I am most jealous of, is my friends that are much more athletically gifted, as in Bobby Wuertz or Colin Suiter. They love sports as much as me, and they can go out and do those things with out much struggle as I know I would never be able to do.
14. Another fear of mine is talking to girls that I'm interested, I'm a very outgoing person and when I meet a girl I like I sometimes try to hard and end up landing in the dreaded "friend zone." Which isn't all bad b/c some of my best friends in the entire world are girls, girls that I couldn't ever imagine dating b/c they are like more then sisters to me, they are absolutely fabulous friends, like Leslie and Steffany.
15. Wrestling is one of the greatest sports around, and I find it so rediculous when people call it gay, how is two extremely badass athletes trying to take eachother down to the ground and pin them gay? Its one of the most intense sports out there, and if you understand it, you couldn't possibly not love it. Every muscle in your body is used.
16. I love to have nice clothes and dress nice, I don't like to over dress like something from express, but I like people to see me and think you know Joe looks nice today.
17. If I could ever design myself to be the perfect person I would want to be a person who is Extremely athletically balanced, not necessarily first team all american in anything in particular, but just good at all sports, I would want to be kind to all, and I would like to be able to make anyone laugh that I am around.
18. I love to see different places and things, my camera on my cell phone is full of random pictures that no one will ever understand but me, my life is a song, and everyone in it make up the lyrics.
19. Someday my goal would be to be as famous as Michael Jordan was in the mid 90s with the Bulls, everyone in the world knew who he was, there was a poster the size of a building in china of him, but I would like everyone to respect me as a person who knows of me.
20. I am not a suicidal person, but ever since I was a kid I have always had a dream that I die before I'm 30, its not a suicidal thing, its just that I think i really need to put my foot on the gas in life to catch up to everyone else.
21. I know there is no chance I will ever be able to marry a girl my age, I am to immature for someone like that, I wanna find someone a few years younger then me. Someone who is on the same page I am in life. Heck, my parents are 10 years apart, and my grandparents are 7 years apart, maybe its a geneology thing..who knows?
22. I really can't imagine my life without my favorite cousins Tayler and Renee, I love all my cousins hardcore more then anything, I guess its b/c we always used to have birthday and christmas parties together and we always stayed so close as family. But I talk to renee and tayler every single day, I can't imagine not, they listen to everything I say, Tayler helps me with my girl problems and Renee listens to all my other problems. My cousin Brynna is always good for a laugh, I love her too, she has a photographic memory about nothing, except stories about me when i'm wasted...lol. I am gonna miss them most when I move up to Iowa City.
23. I don't know how it all happened but the Class of 2006 from PV is one of my favorite classes of all time, I never cease to amaze ryan hankins on how many people in his class he graduated with, that i know. And not only from PV, but north scott 2006 too, I dunno why but its just always been that way.
24. I do not have any tattoos at all, I have considered getting one or two before but i have never gone through with it probably because they cost so much or pry b/c i have seen to many old sailors with them and they look like shit now, so i don't want to look like that when i get older.
25. My biggest regret in life is that i never really finish anything well, including high school, i know if i would have tried, i could have easily been a graduate of college by now, but I'm not and thats pry why i'm still living at home with my parents, but moving to iowa city everything is gonna change and i'm gonna become a much better person.
26. I wish i could have gotten to know my maternal grandpa better, he died when i was 1 and a half, so i never got a chance to get to know him, but i'm sure he is gonna be watching over me in this next chapter in my life.
27. One of my biggest flaws is that i fall in love wayyyyyyy to fast, I have had so many screwed up relationships, my most recent girl friend now hates me, she said i smothered her to much, and i think that is why we aren't together, I never really could trust her, she would tell all her friends that we weren't together and got on other guys while she told me we were together, I really regret that we aren't on speaking terms anymore, but maybe one day we can talk again, and talk everything through, b/c i really would like see her again, but for now i don't know what to do about love, I'm just gonna enjoy being single and hanging out with my best friends!!
28. Beer is one of my favorite things to do, drink, and party with. Its been a good friend and my worst enemy at times. It is exactly like the Brad Paisley song says.
29. If I could have one wish in my life it would be to have one trillion dollars, and with that money I would buy myself a house, a house for the ages, and bring all my closest friends near me to live and so i could see all of them all the time. Including all my buddies from Arizona, including Wes Quick, Bobby, Elliot, James, Jimmy, Candice, Joe Matzinger, Mallory, Val, Big C, Scottie, and all the rest!!!
30. My biggest hope for my life is that everyone I meet or come in contact with is happy to meet me and never forgets me, I always want to be remembered for the good things I have done and said. Thank you to everyone in life that has influenced me and been there for me as a great friend. :)
1. My life was recently changed at a church called KYC, it has opened up my eyes in god like never before. I don't know what it was about this place but it has changed me in a way I never thought could be.
2. The reason I cheer for the University of Southern California, is because of their tradition, the players they have had there, and the great person that is their head coach, Pete Carroll, oh you don't believe me Pete is a good man check this out. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jqSJVEKWujQ
3. I walk kinda like an ogre, people always tell me they can tell its me walking from a distance, I am trying to walk more upright now.
4. I know looks aren't that important, but to me they are to an extent b/c you have to be physically attracted to someone as much as you are emotionally attracted to someone.
5. And as far as I said above, its kinda ironic, b/c i am sooooo self conscience of my looks, it makes me laugh b/c if you try to talk to someone about ur looks and say what should i change? people always do that awkward laugh and say no...you aren't ugly, don't worry. But i know there is a lot about me that i would change.
6. I applied for a job at Geico Insurance yesterday and I hope I get this job soooooo bad, i would be so upset if i didn't b/c it looks really exciting b/c i'd be working in a fast paced environment.
7. Currently I am absolutely terrified of dying, but I have been listening and praying my tail off at church. Because I know if i can get into a personal relationship with Jesus i know i'll have no fear, at all, and my infinite life will just begin at the hour of my death.
8. I recently have started listeing to different kind of music, i guess if i had to give it a genre it would be Lo-Fi, meaning its not like all the background beating that you would have with rap, or the big huge band that you would have with country. A perfect song to think of what i'm talking about it is American Pie by Don McLean.
9. I have another fear of dying single, b/c it really hurts me b/c i know i could love someone so well, and with all my heart, I'd be one of those sappy people that pry never got married again. I want to love and be loved back, again.
10. The song Life is a Song by Patrick Park is the Greatest song in the world right now, here is a link to hear it if you wanna experience the majesty of this song. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fafnermdET4
11. I watch movies and TV shows and believe I could be best friends with fictional characters, like Seth Cohen from the OC, and Dale Denton from Pineapple Express, no i don't smoke weed, i am just really fond of Seth Rogan.
12. A movie that i think is absolutely hysterical that is completely off most people's radar is Forgetting Sarah Marshall, and I love the movie b/c that is my dream, go somewhere completely don't try to find the girl i wanna spend the rest of my life with, and have her find me.
13. One of my worst habits and everyone's not just mine, is gossiping, I worry about other people's relationships, and what "they" did last night, opposed to just worrying about myself. What i am gonna make a habit of not doing this week, and for the rest of my life :)
14. Break.com has some of the funniest random pictures on the internet, I am not really sure where they get them from, but they just really make me laugh.
15. I know this is nerdy, but as much as I love football, my first love in life was reading about Space and Mathematics, I love them, I love physics, cosmology (no not cosmotology which is about makeup, cosmology is the study of the cosmos).
16. I don't really like reality shows like The Real Housewives of Orange County, or the Real World, or Big Brother, because its weird awkward and you almost feel like your staring through their window in the middle of the night. And plus i don't really care what goes on in their lives anyway, i need to take care of my own for right now.
17. I am not a Metro, but i absolutely hate getting dirty at all, i'll go work outside and thats fine, but some people can relax and have a beer afterwards, all i think about is getting into the shower right away.
18. I don't have any allergies, and i would like to think that is because I grew up on a Horse farm and i just got acclimated to it all, but i doubt that is the reason.
19. When I drink beer, I become the world's biggest hugger, i wanna hug everyone, and tell you how much you mean to me as a friend, but if i drink liquor (which i never ever do, seriously...) i become really adgitated with everyone i'm around and start acting like a jerk, and that is why i don't drink it.
20. I used to think having a good time meant you had to go out and get drunk, but I went to church last night instead of the bar. doesn't mean i won't go out again, i am just trying to say that I will pry act a little more responsible when i do.
21. It really hurts me to the core to know that I used to judge people based on looks, automatically judge them before even getting to know them as a true person, and I know there is a lot of people out there like that, and I think that I am assertive enough to make a little bit of a change by just talking to people quietly and privately instead of loud and proud in front of a group.
22. I have always wanted to go to Germany to see where my family originated from, and while i'm there you know maybe stop over to Oktoberfest.
23. Even tho not all of these things about me are bad, I really do feel like i'm getting all the skeleton's out of my closet.
24. I am often asked or accused of being gay, I'm not gay, I have friends that are gay, gay doesn't bother me, gay is just something that some people are, like white or black, gay isn't anything we need to worry about or hate someone for, and i know there is a lot of guys who are anti-gay b/c they find out a friend is gay, well here is an interesting way of looking at it, if you are a hetero-man and you walk down the street in downtown davenport, phoenix, LA, nyc, anywhere, are u automatically attracted to every single woman that you see walking towards you, HECK NO, so don't hate your friends for being gay, not always, but chances are that they love you like a brother, not they wanna get on you, just because they are gay.
25. My goal this week is to look at everyone in the eyes and think about what I love most about them. There is enough hate in this world to go around, why don't we all just try to be friends and love one another, or if we can't do that, then lets not be around or talk to/or about eachother, b/c its like Pastor Justin said, if we walk up to someone and give them a compliment imagine how good you feel and they feel, but when someone gives a compliment, don't just give it, to give it, really really mean it.
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