Sunshine on a new day...

Today is Fat Tuesday 2009, Mardi Gras! And in Davenport, IA you would think no one within a 25 mile radius has ever even heard of the holiday. Well Mardi Gras is supposed to be nuts, where ever you are. Its the last day to go crazy before Lent. Everyone knows that, beads and boobs, everyone knows this...why doesn't anyone in Davenport? Oh well, I'm not really in the mood to drink anyways.

Today I was given a great gift, the gift of friendship, from a person I wasn't sure if that was possible. But today is a new day a great day. Thank you to that person from the bottom of my heart.

As I write this new blog, I am listening to Barack Obama, the President of the United States, I personally didn't vote for him, and wouldn't even think twice about it, but I really hope that he can do everything he says. This country's economy is pretty bad right now, and we're gonna need something to change, but I am still feeling kinda skeptical of this whole Surplus idea.

Even though, I know I have many more friends than a lot of people would even hope to have. I still have never felt as lonely as I do today. With no reason at all, in a world of 6 billion people, I feel like Will Smith in I Am Legend, all alone. I would do anything to have someone else in my life, someone to sit and talk with, someone to talk to til way to late at night, and someone to say I love you too. I know that person will eventually show up, however its very hard to sit and wait to find that person. I know I have done a lot to scare a lot of people away, but I want to find a way to bring that back in like a fish on a reel. It won't be easy and the road is rough, but I really think the change needs to start with me. Its not my looks that scare people off, at least I hope not, haha.

I'm sorry to everyone I have hurt in the past, I'm sorry for all the things I have done to create uncomfortable situations for the people closest to me, I am gonna start taking steps in order to change myself. I realize my good qualities, they aren't hard to find, I'm a very outgoing person, with a good sense of humor and an even higher ability to love other people.

Everything Barack has talked about tonight has made sense and isn't ignorant but why don't we just do it and if he does, I will be one of the millions of voters voting for him. But I really have to see it to believe it.

And in conclusion, I would like to thank anyone who took the time to read all this, I know it was a lot, but I have had a lot on my mind. And hopefully this helps my dreams lighten up a little tonight, God Bless You All!!! Take care and as always More to come...